Monday, December 29, 2008
So. New Years Resolutions. I think they're stupid. New Year's day is in all reality just another day. Each day is a whole new beginning with infinite possibilities and limitless potential. There is nothing special about the beginning of a new year that is not also special about the beginning of a new day, week, or month. I think that we should be continually striving to improve, and continually resolving to do better things and become better people. Similar to my dislike for Valentines Day --I think it's commercial and over done. As I've explained to many a folk --I would rather receive one single daisy on some random Tuesday than a dozen roses on Valentines Day. It's a Hershey's and Halmark fueled annoyance that is a thorn in the side of all true romantics and nonconformists. Not to say that VDay can't be special and done right, but don't just get me a dozen roses because it's VDay and you feel obligated. Ahem. Pardon the side track. As I was saying, my feelings about New Years Resolutions are similar to my feelings on Valentines Day. Don't expect me to write a list of things I'm going to do better or fix about myself just because it's January 1st. If you're into such resolutions, that's fine, I'm not attacking you personally, but that just isn't the way my brain works. My resolutions are really more of a continually working and revolving bucket list of sorts. Things I want to do, things I want to see, and things I want to become. For this reason, I started taking piano lessons in August last year. The things that I have accomplished and become, I have accomplished because I decided that I wanted to be a better person. I decide this every day. That said, I won't be posting about any resolutions I'm making in the upcoming week, because I won't be making any. Just for the sake of balance :)
Year in review then. It has been an absolutely awesome year. Every year manages to get better and better than the last. This year I have lived in Southern California, been to Mexico, I picked up running while I was on the beach, a habit that has stayed with me since, I've lost 40 pounds, I've been to Disneyland and SeaWorld, I've driven from San Diego to Seattle on the Pacific Coast Highway --hugging the line between land and water the entire length of the country. I've done a lot of soul searching and self discovery. I've completed an entire journal and started this blog in the interest of developing my passion for writing. I've delivered babies, saved more lives than I can count, and helped others leave this world in as peaceful and dignified way possible. I've laughed from sheer joy, utter exhaustion, anger, and despair. I've cried tears of the same emotions. I lived in the biggest and greatest city in the world, and came out a better person for it. I've become more assertive, more self confident, and one hell of an ER nurse ...If I do say so myself :) (Yes this is a 'blowing my own horn' post --but it's my blog and my year in review, deal with it :) ) I visited Washington DC, seen the west wing of the White House, been to Arlington National Cemetery. I saw the Yankees and RedSox play in Yankee Stadium ...in the Stadium's final year. I saw the Knicks play, and Janet Jackson Perform at Madison Square Garden. I went to my first NFL game. I fell in love. I found what right now feels like my home --perhaps permanently, we'll see. I paid off three credit cards. I learned enough medical Spanish to get by at work. I ate sushi for the first time. I didn't like it. I made many many new friends and strengthened existing friendships. I went on my first Seattle ferry ride. I've been to the top of the Space Needle and the Empire State Building. I toured the haunted remains of an underground city. I had my feet in the Pacific and Atlantic Oceans. All in all it's been a good year. I've been busy, but I think this covers most of the things that were new and things that I worked on throughout the year. Here's to another fabulous year of new experiences! Happy New Year everyone!!
Sunday, December 28, 2008
-Are you going
Well, I'll be at work, and I have an aversion to kissing the dunk crazy people who like to hit on ER staff ...so unless I get an unexpected non-patient visitor it's not lookin good.
-Did you lose any frien
-Did you gain any frien
Yes, quite a few actually!
-Did you do some thing new?
I make it a point to do something new every week
Not that I remember ...the start of the yeaer was a long time ago though, so who knows ;)
-Did you chang
Of course. Everyone did.
-Are you happy
Meh, does it really matter?
-Are you going
Sure ...my goal is telekinesis :)
-Do you think
Yep ...Every year should be better than the last!
-Did you go on a summe
I live on vacation
-Did you lie to your paren
I'm sure I might have about something or another
-Did you get into a fight
No ...I'm a lover not a fighter :)
-Did you leave
Twice. Mexico and Canada ...lol ...sad :)
-Did you have a good birth
Yep ...I didn't even get another year older!
-Do you think
I shrunk :)
-Did you dye your hair?
Actually, yes but only twice ...shocking ...I know
-Who do you think
Probably my family
Yep, lots of drunk crazy people at various ERs from coast to coast
-Did you sing to anyon
Yeah ...I've been known to break in to song spontaneously in the middle of conversation ;)
Yes ...of course!
-Did you ever go to the hospi
Lots ...an average of 200 hours a month
-What did you drink
Water and twisted puffy Cheetos :)
-Did you get a tatto
-Did you vote?
No, I'm registered to vote in UT, I'm pretty sure they don't even count votes in UT, they just mark the state red, so I figured it wasn't worth sending in my absentee ballot.
-Are you going
No, I don't believe in New Years Resolutions, I think they're dumb.
At work :)
-Do you think
Of course! I have to keep making new ones, my old ones keep getting married and having babies! I need some more friends who realize that I'm the most important thing. Is that selfish ;)
-Are you hopin
I meet special people every day. On the bus.
-How do you feel after
Old. But not that different :
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Thursday, November 27, 2008
You're probably wondering what all this has to do with Thanksgiving. Well, I am enormously grateful for my American heritage, but that's not why I was thinking about history this Thanksgiving. I have been waxing philosophic about the way we are writing our own pages on the books of history lately. I have spent a lot of time in the last few months wondering why things happen the way they do, and why we are prompted to do certain things and take certain paths. The only thing I have been able to come up with is that I don't know. But I do know in whom I have trusted. I know that the Lord has a plan for me and that his plan is perfect, and it does me no good to be a backseat driver and whine over where I think we should and should not have turned. Every moment of every day is a day in history. It is a day that we won't get back. Each decision we make is a different thread in the fabric of the quilt that is our lives.
Four months ago I left Seattle for New York City. It was a decision that I knew was right, but it still caused me all kinds of inner turmoil. I had never felt more at home in my life than I had in Seattle. I love Logan, and I love my family more than you can know, but I must admit that on all my journeys I have never once been homesick for Utah. I've missed my family and I've missed my friends, but not a single ounce of homesickness for Logan. Seattle was a different story. I loved New York, and I wouldn't trade the experiences I had and the friends I made for anything in the world. I have no doubt that I was supposed to be there. I have no doubt that I am supposed to go back to Seattle tomorrow, but why? I don't know.
So I sit here on the eve of the next page in my history book. I love being at home. There is a lot to be said for sleeping in my old bed, doing not a darn thing but whatever I want and chillin' with my awesome family. No matter where I go, this place, here, my parent's house, will always feel right. What am I the most grateful for? You might say that it's everything I'm leaving. Go figure. I like to think that I'm not leaving what I'm the most grateful for. What I'm the most grateful for stays with me always. My parents are always my parents wherever I go. My brother and sister are always my brother and sister wherever I go. I am the same person wherever I go. Who I am, what I am never changes. And that is what I'm grateful for more than anything. I'm grateful for the ability that I have to write my own history. I'm grateful for the ability I have to change the world. My world, and in some small part the greater whole of the world. I'm grateful for all that have gone before me and are at rest in Arlington National Cemetery and in unmarked graves and battlefields throughout the world so that I can have all that I have today. I'm grateful for the legacy I have from my family. I'm grateful for the support of the greatest of all friends and family. The things we are the most grateful for should not change. So, Happy Thanksgiving everyone! And happy history making!
Saturday, November 22, 2008
My mom and me in Central Park
at the Fire Museum --coolest place ever ...you just have to go
ex-roommate Kirsten and I in Central Park
At the Halloween Parade in Greenwich Village --the biggest Halloween Celebration in the US
Danielle and Me at the Bronx Zoo -- I love zoos!!
My favorite Gorilla at the zoo
My first Knicks game
Me and Danielle at the game
Central Park South
Central Park South looking at the Plaza Hotel
The gang from work at my 'last weekend in the city' party
Jill and Me in Brooklyn
Me sleeping on the bus to DC
So Mike says, "Just bring your luggage to meet me at the white house and I'll keep it there in my office." We weren't sure about walking up to the white house with our luggage, but we didn't get arrested :) (note Starbucks cup :) 3 hours of sleep on the bus was not enough!)
The President's motorcade, for which a bystander near by where we met Mike thanked us for the opportunity to witness. :)
WWII Memorial 'Here We Mark the Price of Freedom' There are no words.
Jill and Me at the Lincoln Memorial
Again, no words. Korean Memorial
Jill and Me at the nurses monument at the Vietnam Memorial
Jill Mike and Me on the White House front lawn waiting to see the President and First Lady take off in the Marine One helicopter. Are you seeing why I can't describe everything that has gone on lately?!
Me and Jill on our own private tour of the West Wing of the White House
Me and Jill in front of Marine One. That's a big freakin' helicopter!
On the wall outside the Holocaust Museum. This says it all.
Changing of the Guard at the Tomb of the Unknown Soldier
Jill and Me on the Jonathan Larson bench at the Life Cafe back in NYC
My favorite doorman, Rupert. Every day I'd walk in and say, "Hello!" and he'd respond with a cheery, "Okay!"
And that's my life the last few weeks. Thanks to those of you who shared it with me and to everyone who made it possible and incredible. Memories impressions and feelings were created that will not be forgotten after a lifetime.
Sunday, November 9, 2008
1. Did you date someone from your school? I went on dates with a few people, but no one serious.
9. What kind of job do you do have now? I'm an RN in the Emergency Department at St. Lukes -the level 1 trauma center for Harlem, NYC :)
13. Were you a nerd? What do you mean were? I still am!
14. Did you get suspended or expelled? Nope.
Friday, October 24, 2008
Have a nice day :)
Monday, October 20, 2008
Me and Siobhan at the start of the b-day celebration --yes I'm jet lagged.
Jaryd and Joe
me and Josh at my first NFL game --go Seahawks!
Sunday, October 12, 2008
1. Getting excited to go to my first homecoming dance ...ah to be sixteen again *rolls eyes*
2. Missing my summer job as a snow cone maker ... I heart snow cones!
3. Figuring out how I could meet Derek Jeter ...wait a minute ...
4. Babysitting. A lot.
5. Still getting over the enthusiasm of FINALLY being able to drive ;)
What are 5 things on my to do list
1. Go to my first NFL game --yay! Go Seahawks :)
2. Find a job in Florida
3. Finish Wuthering Heights
4. Go see Jersey Boys
5. Go to the Bronx Zoo
What are my favorite snacks? (By snacks you mean meals, right ;) )
1. Cottage cheese
2. Wheat thins
4. Twisted puffy Cheetos
What would I do if I was a millionaire
1. Pay off my debt
2. Buy a cute little house on a tropical beach somewhere
3. Buy a normal sized house close to home
4. Go on an extended vaca to Greece
5. Put the rest in a savings account and live off the interest
Places I have lived
1. Logan, UT
2. Long Island, NY
3. Mission Viejo, CA
4. Seattle, WA
5. Manhattan, NY
Jobs I have had
1. Snow Cone Maker --still missin the days of free snow cones!
2. Telephone surveyor --one of the obnoxious people who call during dinner to ask if you'll take a survey.
TV shows I love to watch:
1. Grey's Anatomy
4. The OC
8 things I am looking forward to:
1. Living on a warm sunny beach (FL, HI, etc)
2. Getting out of debt
3. Getting back in debt with a new car
4. Coming back to Seattle
5. Growing up
6. Coming back to Seattle
7. Basketball season
8. Coming back to Seattle
8 things on my wish list:
1. Getting my CEN
3. Multiple tropical vacations
4. Men who don't exist
6. Continued good fortune
7. Derek Jeter
8. My own hydroplane
8 things that happened yesterday:
1. Went to dinner with friends
2. Relived the Ozzie's/Pesos glory
3. Walked past H&M without going in --bonus points!!!
4. Slept from 0930-1530
5. Bought my first pair of ballet flats --in black patent leather
6. Watched pretty bartenders make pretty alcoholic beverages (not for me :) )
7. Started 2 IV's to cure post 21st b-day hangovers
8. Ate brownies and ice cream and half cooked garlic bread --and it was good!
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Dear Florida Board of Nursing: How long can it possibly take to get fingerprint cards mailed from Florida to New York City? Apparently more than A MONTH!!! I could have rode my bicycle (assuming i had a bicycle) to Miami to pick them up and back by now. Send me my fingerprint cards!!!!
Dear Eye Doctor: Thank you for deciding that you needed to see me before allowing me to refill my contact perscription so that I can see. I understand that my eyes must have changed exponentially in the last 9 months since I've seen you, and it's perfectly logical for me to jet home to Logan to make an appointment to see you. Remember when I saw you 9 months ago (I know it seems like forever) and we discussed that I would be moving around the country so it would be a good idea to keep my normal two year interval between appointments, and would thus-ly need two years worth of contact lenses? What happened to that idea? I am not so much all about the risk of infection and corneal abrasion etc of wearing the same pair of contacts longer than recommended. And although I do look pretty damn cute in my glasses (see random thought #4) they get in the way at work. Which brings me to:
Dear creepy-going-to-go-postal-any-day-now-at-work-guy: Please leave me alone. It is creepy when you stand so close. When I am not friendly and outgoing toward you, I am not playing hard to get. When you are the only one not actively involved in saving a man's life, and I am forced to ask you to take my glasses off my face or risk having them drop on the bloody-vomit covered body of the man who I am doing chest compressions on, it is not a come on. It just means that I am compressing so hard that my glasses are sliding down my nose, and I would like you to remove them from my face and go place them somewhere away from the bloody vomit. This would not only save my glasses but give you something to do besides standing 2 inches behind me breathing on me as I try to save this man's life.
Dear Cute Man who hit on me on the way home today: Thank you. I know I told you I was married, but that doesn't mean I didn't secretly appreciate being asked, "Excuse me ...can we get to know each other and ...ya know ...socialize?" As I am walking home in rain drenched scrubs after working a twelve hour shift with a greasy face and messy hair in a messy ponytail.
Dear MTA: Thank you first for suspending all express train service this weekend so I can enjoy an extra 15 minutes on an over-packed subway while you maintain the express tracks. Thank you also for 'maintaining' the express tracks which always seem to run without a problem instead of the local track which broke a rail today suspending all subway service from 110th St. and 42nd St. I enjoyed choosing between a 70 block walk home in the pouring rain, or a 6 block walk to sit on a bus for 30 minutes.
Dear no-longer drunk and high on PCP and Crack 65 year old man: Thank you for buying an orange soda for me the other day at work. Although I told you no thank you, and to enjoy it for yourself, I want you to know that it honestly made my day that you would do that for me. You are a very pleasant and sweet man when you are not screaming profanities at us. You should not do drugs so you can be sweet and pleasant all the time.
Dear hot paramedic: Thank you for offering to drive me to the deli three blocks away in your ambulance at 2:30 this morning (perhaps wearing the glasses more often won't be such a bad thing :) ). I appreciated it, but I was really enjoying the nice walk. Perhaps next time you won't get sent out on another call so soon and I'll take you up on your offer. Perhaps next time when you don't have other medics in the back of the ambulance we can discuss other ways to spend my break. Call me.
PS: Dear Hot Paramedic, please send a friend hot paramedic to Utah to entertain my friend Jill on her breaks. The hospital she works at has many really big elevators and stairwells.
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Not a park, but twilight from my balcony --still nature-y :)
Butterflies in Fort Tryon Park --In October :)
Me in Fort Tryon
George Washington Bridge at dusk from Fort Tryon Park